EVERY TIME I NEED, I FIND SOMETHING
EVERY TIME YOU CALL, YOU KNOW THAT I'M COMING
FOR YEARS AND FOR DECADES I'VE STRUGGLED
TO DEFINE THE TRUTH AND APPLY IT TO MY BECOMING
YOU KNOW I NEED SUBSTANCE
TO DESCRIBE THE PLIGHT OF MY LIFE FOR MY JUDGEMENT
STANDING AT THE FOOT OF THE MOST HIGH
TO GIVE AN ACCOUNT OF MY LIFE AND MY SUFFERING
WHAT WOULD I HAVE DONE DIFFERENTLY
TO DERAIL THE PATH THAT LED TO MY PUNISHMENT
STANDING ON THE EARTH WITH A COLD HEART
TO KNOW THAT ALL I'VE DONE MIGHT'VE MEANT NOTHING

forgiveness is a fine word
but what does it mean for all the people I've hurt
people that I've dragged through the dirt
over years all the fear that I've let it unearth
all of this is what i might turn
into a gift to transmute all the pain that I've birthed
into something more valuable than me
into something worth living for
into something I mean

I'M LETTING ALL THE PAIN GO
LET IT PASS THROUGH ME
WATCHING PATIENCE AS IT GROWS
CHANGES HAPPEN TO ME
ALL THE TIME I WASTED IN MY LIFE
CHASING HADES IN THE DARK
WEARING FACES IN THE LIGHT

IT'S A RACE TO THE FINISH LINE
MONKEY ON MY BACK
KEEP MY PACE
I WILL FINISH MY LIFE WITH MY SOUL INTACT
IN THE GRAVE
IT'S UNCERTAIN WHAT WE WILL COME FACE TO FACE WITH
BUT IN THE PRESENT MOMENT I ADDRESS THE SITUATION
PONTIFICATE THE MEANING OF IT ALL
HUMBLE LEST I EVER FALL
WALKING CAUSE I LEARNED TO CRAWL
THROUGH THE MUD RAIN CLOUDING MY VISION IT'S WHAT I'M UP AGAINST
WARRIOR IN PRESENT TENSE
LOCATE MY DESTINATION AND HOP THE FENCE


DIFFICULT TO DESCRIBE ALL THE WAYS IN WHICH YOU ARE
I'M IN LOVE WITH ALL OF IT
PAINFUL JUST TO SAY I WASN'T THERE WHEN I WAS YOUNG
NOW I'M A PART OF IT
GLAD THAT ALL THE TIMES I SPENT AWAY FROM YOU ARE DONE
NOW I'M IN CHARGE OF IT
IN THE MODE OF BEING THAT SUITS EVERYTHING YOU ARE
I EMBRACE ALL OF IT

SEEING AS HOW I'VE BECOME
MORE THAN I WAS WHEN I BEGUN
I BELIEVE THAT IT'S MORE THAN THIS
SEEING AS THE SKY MAY PART
SEEING AS THIS BREAKS MY HEART
I BELIEVE THERE'S MORE THAN THIS

I put it into my work
the answer to the question being "whats it all worth"
as long as I put my god first
I can attest to the fact the anxiety will disperse
and everything I've struggled against in this life
will amount to debris because I despise
letting obstacles win without learning how
to surmount them or smashing their foundation just to bring them down

I'M LETTING ALL THE PAIN GO
LET IT PASS THROUGH ME
WATCHING PATIENCE AS IT GROWS
CHANGES HAPPEN TO ME
ALL THE TIME I WASTED IN MY LIFE
CHASING HADES IN THE DARK
WEARING FACES IN THE LIGHT